if I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to

if I am hardened no fear of further abandonment

if I am famous then maybe i´ll feel good in this skin

if I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect

i would throw a party still it would not come

i would bike run swim and still it would not come

i´d go travelling and still it would not come

I would starve myself and still it would not come

if I´m masculine I will be taken more seriously

if I take a break it would make me irresponsible

if i´m elusive I will surely be sought after often

if I need assistance then I must be incapable

i´d be filthy rich and still

it would not come

I would seduce them and still

it would not come

I would drink vodka and still

it would not come

i´d have an orgasm still

it would not come

if I accumulate knowledge

i´ll be inpenetrable

if I am aloof no one will know

when they strike a nerve

if I keep my mouth shut the boat

will not have to be rocked

if I am vulnerable I will be

trampled upon

i would go shopping and still

it would not come

i´d leave the country and still

it would not come

i would scream and rebel still

it would not come

i would stuff my face and still

it would not come

i´d be productive and still it would not come

i´d be celebrated still it would not come

i´d be the hero and still it would not come

i´d renunciate and still it would not come