Dear diary

I´m fourteen and I always feel so nervous
Tell me why is it that everyone is so perfect
While I feel so worthless, and they look so happy
While lately for me, my mood has been crappy

And I have come to believe all the things that I´m seeing
On magazines and TV, of every single perfect being
All the girls with perfect bodies, and such amazing skin
Oh how I would kill to live the life that they are in

I´ve been trying to lose weight over that past couple of weeks
Throwing up after meals, on the rare times that I eat
But that isn´t enough, I still need to do much more
To get this guy to notice me, people wonder what for

There´s so much room in my tummy that it isn´t funny
I don´t wanna be people´s dummy, but either way I feel dumpy
Most of the time I am left here, thinking to myself
Oh god is this worth it, or do I need some help
Like

Chorus:
I´ve been used by guys, I´ve been hurt by girls
I´ve been hit by my mom, and cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight, just trying to be perfect
I´m waiting for somebody to tell me that I´m worth it

You´re not alone(repeat 16x)
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I´m twenty-three and just ran across my old diary
I opened it up but i really don´t know what inspired me
To do this, but I was instantly in tears
To think of how lost I was during those young years

And that guy that I mentioned back when I was fourteen
He´s my fiancé now; I guess that I´m living a dream
We got a small house, a nice car and a good life
But my arms are still scarred from using my own knife

But he accepts me how I am, and he knows about my past
And after all that, he still says that we´re gonna last
And I love him, I love him, I love him with all my heart
I honestly couldn´t take it if we ever got pulled apart

If I could say one thing to me at age fourteen
It would be that you´ll find a guy who will treat you like a queen
It gets better than it is, don´t worry about your size
And never think you´re alone, someone out there hears your cries
Saying

Chorus:
I´ve been used by guys, I´ve been hurt by girls
I´ve been hit by my mom, and cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight, just trying to be perfect
I´m waiting for somebody to tell me that I´m worth it